Meet NYC Alternative Pop Artist: Chloe Lilac. “I would’ve never thought it would reach that many people…”

Coming off of a brief hiatus, Arcane is happy to present: Chloe Lilac. Raised in New York City, this Brooklyn native has become one of the most sought out alternative acts we’ve seen in a while. It seems the stripped down and laid back vibes Lilac offers in her music is just what we’ve needed in the industry.

Although she’s only been around for a year, her transparent lyrics and intimate performances has attracted a cult following (whom she calls “Flowers”).

Whether this is your first time hearing about Ms. Lilac, or you’re a self-proclaimed “Flower”, I think you will enjoy this insightful interview talking about everything from her influencers and street performing in New York City, to the release of her first song and being on tour!

Enjoy the interview!

Q: Before we begin, would you like to introduce yourself?

A: Hey! My name’s Chloe Lilac, I’m a singer/songwriter/producer from Brooklyn, New York.


Q: Your music is generally Pop (specifically Alternative & Bedroom Pop (Lo-fi)) – I’m curious as to who you listened to growing up? Who are some current artists you’ve been listening to?

A: Oh man, I listen to all types of stuff.

Growing up I mainly listened to Frank Zappa and The Talking Heads, ironically enough I wasn’t really allowed to listen to pop music. Now, I listen to a lot of A Tribe Called Quest, Samm Henshaw, Mac Ayres, Mac Miller, Mac Demarco (many Macs), Lana Del Rey, Childish Gambino, Tyler, the Creator, Ski Mask, Car Seat Headrest and Hiatus Kaiyote.


Q: Did you always know that you would take on music professionally, or was there a specific moment that it all just … clicked?

A: That’s a great question! It’s been the only thing I’ve ever wanted to do, and ever since I can remember I’ve been writing songs. I’ve always had an insatiable drive to do music. I don’t think I’d be able to do anything else.


Q: Once you decided to become an artist, how did you go about it? (Did you begin by songwriting/producing/performing/etc?)

A: I’ve been writing songs my entire life, and performing in bands ever since I was 8 years old. I began by producing my own songs when I was 10 on Garageband. Then when I was 13, a friend told me to check out this website, SoundCloud, it’s been history ever since.


Q: I know for a short time you busked (performing outside) , was it ever intimidating – especially living somewhere like New York City? Where did you get the confidence to do that?

A: Again, I was desperate to succeed in music and I had no idea how to infiltrate the music scene. I have the outrageous privilege of growing up/living in New York City, so my impulsive 13 year old brain concluded that the best way to go about getting exposure was to busk. I was never scared, I was honestly just so desperate for success that nothing mattered.


Q: After a short time busking, you were introduced to a producer named Bobby Yewah – how was it meeting for the first time? How has he helped you musically?

A: I LOVE BOBBY!! That’s the MAN. He took me under his wing and taught me so much about myself, confidence, and music. I’d come in with a song written, play it for him on the piano, he’d produce it out in like 2 hours (so talented) and then we’d watch Netflix and eat Wendy’s. He taught me how to be a recording artist. Not every take has to be perfect. Having fun in the studio and talking about real shit is important. Music is about connection. He also taught me that working with a producer is a collaboration. The song is both of yours.

Chloe Lilac, Recklass

Q: Early last year, you released your first song “Reckless”, what was that experience like?

A: I was at a really interesting time in my life. I was being really reckless (hence the name) at the time and was really finding myself as a young woman. I wanted to write about how much of a mess I was. Being a kid in New York, you grow up faster than a lot of other places. It was the first song I had ever professionally recorded, and I was so nervous the whole time. Bobby calmed me down and was super patient.


Q: Once the recording process was completed, how did you feel listening to it as a whole? Were you nervous about releasing it?

A: I cried when I first listened to it. I couldn’t believe it was me. I honestly wasn’t that nervous, I was excited to see the reaction online.


Q: Do you ever get nervous when you release new material?

A: OH YEAH. Definitely, especially when it’s a song about a specific person.


Q: What type of advice could you give aspiring artists (specifically musicians) when it comes to debuting?

A: Just put it out there, take a deep breath and let it rock. Don’t try to control the outcome. Surrender to the process and everything will follow.


Q: Almost a year to your debut, you released your fourth song, “Your Worst” which has accumulated over 10,000 plays (on Soundcloud alone). Can you briefly explain what the song is about?

A: It was about this guy that I really liked, that I’d on and off talked to for a pretty long time. We always ended up hating each other, then half a year to a year later we’d always end up back where we started. It had been a vicious cycle for a while. We were at the not talking phase and I missed him, so this was how I coped with it.


Q: What (or who) exactly influences you to write and how do you maintain creativity?

A: All my songs are about real shit. That’s why I get nervous about releasing them. Childish Gambino is my biggest inspiration, as well as Lana Del Rey.


Q: Shortly after Your Worst, you released, what can be called your signature song, “Stolen Liquor” – which was praised by sources like Nylon Magazine. Did you ever expect this song to catch on so quickly and reach as many people as it did?

A: Oh my gosh no – I screamed when I saw Nylon picked it up! That was crazy, Nylon is such an iconic magazine. Shook can’t even begin to describe how I felt. I would’ve never thought it would reach that many people in such a short time. It was really really cool.

Q: When you perform, does it ever overwhelm/encourage you to see just how many people enjoy your music? Where do you think you would be most shocked to learn you had fans? … Do you happen have a name (or any ideas) for your supporters yet?

A: I always get surprised when people like my music. I’m so in my head about it that when people tell me they like it, it takes me off guard (in the best way). I’m honestly always shocked to hear I have fans. It brings me so much joy. I have no idea what I’d call them, maybe flowers?


Chloe Lilac, Live 2.JPG
Photo by Olivia Kearney

Q14: Speaking of performances, you are about to head on tour with alternative pop/rock singer Sasha Sloan for a few shows, are you excited? How did you guys even connect?

A: I’M SO EXCITED!!! I opened for Rejjie Snow recently, and then she reached out to my manager about me opening for her. I’m so grateful for the opportunity.




Q: Should the crowd be prepared to sing along to your latest hit single “Summer” while you’re on stage? What can we expect from your set?

A: Just good vibes and fun. I want people to feel comfortable dancing and feel at home! When I’m performing it should be a safe space for expression, I want everyone to leave with a smile on their faces knowing they had a good time.


Q: After the tour, should we be waiting for a Chloe Lilac project, and maybe even a tour/mini tour of your own by 2019? Are there any places/events you would like to perform in the future?

A: I just finished my EP, so hopefully it’ll come out soon! Camp Flog Gnaw is a festival I’ve always wanted to perform at. The Bowery Ballroom is a dream of mine to sell out and play. Also Madison Square Garden, but that’s a little more long term! I’d also love to go to London and Paris and do a couple shows there.

Chloe Lilac

Q: For a new artist, you have accomplished quite a bit, from countless stellar performances to acknowledgement from established sources in the industry – I’m curious as to what some of your goals (whether work related or personal) for the rest of the year are?

A: Thank you! I want to make good music, help out other artists and connect with as many people as possible, as well as build up my fan base and start my album. Also, perform a LOT. In terms of my personal life, try to be the best person I can be and the best friend I can be.



Q: Because you are such a consistent artist, and seem very hard-working, how do you spend your free time? What advice can you give other creatives about balancing a work and personal life?

A: I’m still figuring out the balance, honestly. I have an amazing group of friends that I love so much. My advice is: try to find like minded, supportive, creative people. Personally, I’ve found being sober or if not keeping it in strict moderation has helped me a lot with keeping my work life/priorities on track and keeping my drive up.


Q: Lastly, is there anything you would like to say to your supporters?

A: Thank you all so much! Really, I’m incredibly grateful. Don’t hesitate to reach out! Big love to all of you and new music is on the way!


If you enjoyed this interview and would like to hear the songs featured throughout the interview you can choose from the selection below:


Lastly, stay updated by following her on: Soundcloud, Instagram, and Twitter!

Monthly Playlist; Sept. 2018

Today is the official last day of Summer 2018 😦

I questioned the best way to showcase all the music I discovered over the summer. My initial thought was to simply to a “Best Songs of the Summer” list, but I figured that Arcane’s audience would prefer listening to music rather than reading about it; therefore I decided to compile two separate lists: one on SoundCloud, and one on Spotify.


The reason I did two seperate lists is because one: there may have been a sound clash and two: not everyone has an account on both services and I’m not sure if you can access the music without an account.
Below, I’ve featured the tracks featured on both playlists, along with a link to bring you to them. If for whatever reason the link is not working, or for whatever reason you are not able to hear a specific song, please contact me (via contact) and I will help you as soon as possible.

Spotify Version

  • Millic – You
  • Cherrie – Find You
  • Kaytranada – Leave Me Alone (feat. Shay Lia)
  • Wande Coal x DJ Tunez – Iskaba
  • Maleek Berry – Kontrol
  • Taliwhoah – Alright
  • Avelino – Sweet Luv
  • Cassie – Don’t Play It Safe
  • Lolo Zouai – Challenge
  • CERAADI – Active
  • Wolftyla – Goin’ Diddy
  • Amine – Reel It In
  • Velo – Flipmode
  • Victoria Monet – Freak
  • Kehlani – Already Won
  • Gallant – Cave Me In (ft. Eric Nam & Tablo)
  • H.E.R – As I Am
  • Alina Baraz – I Don’t Even Know Why Though
  • Doja Cat – Casual
  • Childish Gambino – Feels Like Summer
  • Raye – Cigarette (ft. Mabel & Stefflon Don)
  • Amine – Blackjack
  • Mila J – That One Friend
  • Dounia – Avant Garde

Soundcloud Version

  • Childish Gambino – Feels Like Summer
  • Dounia – Avant Grande
  • Lolo Zouai – Challenge
  • Iyamah – Cryptic Love
  • Junny – Say
  • Villette – Not In Love
  • Sofi De La Torre – Flex Your Way Out (ft. Blackbear)
  • Summer Walker – Girls Need Love
  • NBDY – Used To
  • Jayla Darden – Reminder
  • Amber Mark – Love Me Right
  • Childish Gambino – Summertime Magic
  • Tom Tripp – Medusa
  • Raye – Distraction
  • Briet – Twin
  • Maty Noyes – Say It To My Face
  • Danelle Sandoval – High Til
  • Croosh – Ziba
  • Tink – M.I.A
  • Tinashe – Wrong
  • Thuy – Options
  • Hadar Adora – I Can Do Anything
  • Cautious Clay – Juliet + Caesar
  • Sabryna – Need That Back


I hope that everyone had a happy and healthy summer 2018, I look forward to spending the rest of the year with you guys! ❤

The Eenah x Sahar Collaboration

Although I’ve never had an exquisite taste in fashion, I will say this is the year I paid more attention to it. For whatever reason, 2018 is the year my interest in fashion, especially my interest in fashion brands developed by those of color.

I’ve always been someone who wanted to spend to spend money in my own community and with brands like MATTE BRAND by Briana Shanee & Adriana Sahar Shop by Adriana Sahar, thankfully more people are starting to think that way as well.



I give these two spotlight, because these two real life friends have been able to take the industry by storm getting attention from outlets like the Fader (Matte Brand) and Galore Mag (Adriana Sahar) and today they are collaborating for their first ever runway show tonight!

In the midst of New York Fashion Week, this is an amazing opportunity and collaboration for both designers. Whereas I view Briana’s Matte, as clothing I would want to wear when I’m feeling soft and vibrant, I look as Adriana’s as the type I would want when I’m feeling edgy and spontaneous. Regardless, I’m excited to see how it will look on the runway!

If you’re interested in looking at their clothing lines, as well as a couple others I have found through the year continue scrolling:

  • Matte by Briana Shanee (Apparel, Swimwear)
  • Adriana Sahar by Adriana Sahar (Accessories, Apparel)
  • Pink Plastic Babez by Aurum Amare (Accessories, Apparel, Swimwear, Outerwear)
  • LacebyTanaya by Tanaya Henry (Jewelry, Skincare)
  • Mars by Lyjerria (Accessories, Apparel, Swimwear)
  • Vidakush by Rhianna Cooper (Jewelry, Accessories)

Meet Aspiring Rapper/Producer: Phil Castillo. “Create music that’s out of the ordinary.”

As most of Arcane’s readers know – the site has been on a hiatus since the beginning of the summer. I had planned to come back sometime this fall, that is, until I received an email not too long ago.. For whatever reason, you guys have stuck around and I’d love to think that it’s because of the artists I have been able to introduce to you since the site’s start.
About a week ago, I was contacted by an upcoming artist from New Jersey. About four years into his career, rapper and producer Phil Castillo has released an overwhelming amount of music, his latest releasing being a rendition of SLCHLD‘s “Wednesday Girl”. As a songwriter, I (obviously) gravitated towards his full-length production projects  Heartbeats and Touch – but Castillo is more than just a talented producer.
He is an artist in in rawest form and hopefully that is able to come across to you readers throughout this interview. I got the chance to speak with him about his beginnings, getting help from bigger platforms, and much more.

Q: Before we begin, would you like to introduce yourself?

A: Sure. My name is Phil Castillo. I’m a 20 year old independent rapper & producer from New Jersey. Thanks for having me.

Q: How long have you been interested in music? Was it something you always saw yourself doing professionally?

A: I’ve been interested in music for as long as I can remember.

My family has always been lively when it comes to music, whether it’s having the radio on full blast, collecting CD’s and vinyls, or watching music video based channels on TV. It’s always been an influence ever since I was young.

I remember thinking as a kid that I wanted my life to be related to music somehow; if not in a creative way; like collecting albums like my dad, becoming a manager of a famous band, or owning a music store! [laughs] I don’t know, anything that had an outlet for music, I wanted to be a part of. I wasn’t sure how far i thought about becoming an actual artist.


Q: I know that you are both a rapper and producer, which came first? Is either lane more natural for you?

A: I started rapping around 2010. Nothing special was made around that time, it was just me messing around in GarageBand on the family computer with an iPhone microphone while no one was home, rapping over beats I found on YouTube in the style of artists like Eminem, Kid Cudi and Drake, to name a few.  I didn’t take it seriously until I released my debut album Wallflower in 2014. That was when I knew I matured as an artist.

Then came producing- which I dabbled in here and there, but didn’t fully pick up on it until 2017 where I released multiple full length instrumental albums. Though I love both rapping & producing, both lanes are the same to me in the way a love-hate relationship works. Some might even say I work too much as a perfectionist does.


Q: As you mentioned earlier, your debut project was released over four years ago. Did you have any fears/concerns about how it would be received?

A: Yes, of course. It may be hard to tell now, but back then, I was extremely shy to even share my music with anyone. I used to overthink every little detail, especially because Wallflower was an album all about a reckless lifestyle I experienced while I was young. I feared people would get the wrong impression of me because I was around people that were influenced to do the wrong things.


Q: What was your creative process like throughout the creation of this project?

A: While I was still in school, I would constantly play music or write notes and drafts throughout classes to kill time. One of the albums I would constantly play that inspired the story behind Wallflower was Because the Internet by Childish Gambino because the concept ties in with a script that goes along with the album. I was blown away at how he brought a universe he created through music to life.

After school, I used to spend hours, days even, in my old friend’s home studio. I basically lived there. There wasn’t a second that went by where we weren’t away from the studio. We would spend hours working on songs and listening to the music we would create until the break of dawn came by. Then the day would just go by as normal. Wake up, school, home studio, get little sleep in, then repeat.


Q: Do you think as time has passed, has it become easier to make a cohesive project, or does it become harder with every release?

A: It becomes harder because with every release, as you take on many topics, you have to make sure you’re not running out of things to say while trying to grab the listener’s attention. You have to keep people on their toes, and make them wonder “what’s next?” instead of “really? that’s it?”


Q: A while back, I interviewed an audio engineer and they explained that there is somewhat difference between engineering and producing – do you take on both roles or do you focus solely on producing? Can you briefly explain what exactly the role of a producer is?

A: I take on both roles, and there is a difference between the two. The role of a producer is to build the song’s body. It’s what holds the song together. Engineering is about keeping the song and it’s volumes in a balance without having anything clash or clip and keep a smooth mix throughout the song where you can hear everything that it delivers. Engineering is not only about controlling the levels, but compressing it.


Q: As I mentioned earlier, you’re a rapper as well – have you produced all the music you’ve recorded to thus far?

A: No, I haven’t. I wouldn’t even call the songs I’ve made songs. They’re more like renditions, you know? Coming off of albums like Wallflower and The Blue Room Project, that was a time where I didn’t know a single thing on how to produce beats. What carried the album was the stories and the lyrics it held on each song. I think that’s what made albums like mine so special. I know some can call it unoriginal, but it’s my point of view I’m speaking about through my songs. No one can ever take your point of view from you.


Q: How long does it usually take you to complete an entire song?

A: When I make a song, the beat comes first. I have to think how the song should sound like. It could take hours to find the right sample, the right set of drums, and so on. When the beat oss finished, then come the lyrics.

I listen to the beat more than once to craft ideas, hooks, and flows. As far as recording goes, I have to be in a certain mood. It comes with it’s good days and it’s bad days. Some days, i can spend hours recording, and it doesn’t turn out the way i want it to, and then i put it to the side for a while.

I may not like my cadence, I may screw up a line, or I don’t say it clearly enough. It’s key to be comfortable enough for you to like it, and not just one take it. Anyways, mixing and mastering takes me a couple more hours to get it just right. To sum it up shortly, it would take me about a day to finish one song. I repeat the same process with others.


Q: When it comes to what your beats sound like or what you write about, are there any musicians or bodies of work you are influenced by?

A: Too many to name. I listen to a lot of rap, R&B, and Pop. Kanye West is like an idol to me. Childish Gambino, he’s an all out renaissance man. I love the way artists like Frank Ocean, Kendrick Lamar & J. Cole write. They all push me creatively.

When I first started producing, I was heavily influenced by Joji, Knxwledge & 9th Wonder. When I produce now, I’m influenced by Elijah Who, Aso, Tomppa, Sleepdealer, Jinsang, Idealism, jhfly, and Piglet Spacey…

Recently I’ve been inspired by Sango, Monte Booker, and ICYTWAT. I also love vocalists like Clairo, mxmtoon, Sophie Meiers… There’s a whole lot, [laughs] I can really go on.

Q: Are there any upcoming musicians you would like to work with in the future?

A: I can’t think of anyone at the moment, but i’d love to work with more rappers & vocalists!


Q: Has it been easy for you to find work/opportunities specifically when it comes to getting your beats out there?

A: It’s not. It should be so much easier. So many collectives and brands are only looking for one specific kind of sound that matches what they’re looking for, and it’s so boring. It’s like they’re not bringing their full potential to the table. There are so many artists like me that are so underrated and are overlooked that have amazing songs that are barely even hitting 5k. We need bigger creators to help branch out to smaller artists that deserve it for the work ethic they put in.


Q: What would be the best way for an upcoming musician to connect with you in the future?

A: Just message me directly! [laughs] I’m usually active on my Instagram. I try to respond as quickly as i can to all messages that i receive.


Q: You’re a somewhat “seasoned” artist, what has this journey been like so far? Do you think you’ve grown with every project?

A: I like to think my career grows every time I release a project. They’re like stepping stones to my history. For example, I made Wallflower when I was just 16. Listening back to that album, there were a lot of things that stayed true, and a lot of things that changed within time, and it showed on my future projects. I can’t compare an album like The Blue Room Project to Wallflower, because I was in a different headspace back then. I feel as if I learn and advance more with every one, and i try to show that.


Q: Have you developed a signature sound yet? Is there any kind of advice you would give aspiring musicians when it comes to developing their sound?

A: I don’t think I have, because I don’t want to stick with the same formula on every project. I like to stay experimental and try new things. The best advice that I can give towards aspiring musicians is to always stay out of the box. Create music that’s out of the ordinary and stray from your comfort zone, and everything else will follow your way.


Q: What are your hopes for the rest of 2018?

A: My hopes for the rest of the year is to just grow. As a person and as an artist. Become more widely known, be more consistent in releasing music, connect more with my fans, do more collabs, write more, perform more especially! Recently, I did a couple of shows with a band where I performed my 2017 album A Work in Progress front to back, and it was such a heartwarming experience. I’d love to do it more frequently!


Q: What was your experience like performing for an audience? Were you nervous?

A: Oh yeah, I was so nervous! [laughs] I was too paranoid thinking I might have a panic attack on stage. Even when I have so much fun performing, I feel like my inner shyness acts up, and as soon as I get off, all I can do is just sigh in great relief.


Q: Is there any event you can see yourself performing in the future?

A: If I could, I would love to tour! I’ve only done shows on the east coast around Jersey so far, so I would love to get familiar with more of the east and experience the west for the first time. I haven’t been to a festival in years either! I don’t even remember the last festival I’ve been to, that’s how long it’s been [laughs] but to be a part of a big festival line-up would be crazy to me.


Q: Overall, what is the message that you hope to convey in your music?

A: The message I hope to convey is that you are not alone. I make my songs for people who are just like me, in hopes that it reaches to those who don’t have a voice to express themselves or find anybody else they can relate to.


Q: Is there anything you’d like to tell your supporters?
A: Thank you all for listening! Words cannot express how much i admire all of you that take the time out of your day to press play on my songs, for it is more than just music to me. It’s love.

To support Phil’s music make sure to follow him on BandCamp & Spotify!

If you’re interested in working with him, make sure to follow him on Instagram & SoundCloud.  

Arcane Catches Up With: Phé. “I think now I have a much stronger foundation and a deeper understanding of what I do.”

When I decided to create Arcane, I hoped that it would gradually become a website that music lovers trusted to provide quality music from quality artists all over the world. In just these few months, I have been given the chance to interact with some of the most talented upcoming musicians from all over the world whether it be in here in America, Europe, or even Asia.

As I’ve mentioned before, Arcane is only as valuable as its readers make it, and because of you all, this will succeed. I take great pride knowing that our readers have occasionally stopped on the site when there are no new posts (at least, that’s what statistics show) and support the artists I have brought onto the site – whether it be through listening to their music, or sharing links to interviews, etc.

Another thing I take great pride in is, well – the success of the artists I’ve brought onto the site. Not only does it boost my ego to know that the artists I show on Arcane are actually as good as I think they are, I’m especially happy to see their growth as time goes on. In most cases, the artists I interview are in the beginning stages of their career and it has been a blessing to see them blossom into the artists they’ve worked tirelessly to become – an example would be R&B songstress Phé.


Some of you may remember Phé, but if you need a quick reminder, she is a singer/songwriter originally from Vancouver, Canada. At the time I spoke to her, she had just gotten settled in living in LA, California after graduating from Berklee College of Music in Boston, MA. After the success of her two singles “Incredible” and “About Us” she admitted to hitting a creative block but stressed that she was still creating and looking into releasing more music within the year.

In a span of four months, I’m happy to say that Phé has made her return.

With the release of “Feel You” which she describes as an 80s pop-influenced R&B song, it’s almost an immediate reassurance that Phé has pulled herself out of whatever roadblock she was in. Staying true to her R&B love-ballad style of writing, it’s safe to say that she’s one of those artists who has the ability to pull at the heartstrings whether you want her to or not.

Listening to this song will make you feel like you are hearing the words of someone’s diary. Through her sultry vocals, it’s inevitable that you recognize the longing, specifically of a lost love in her voice. The song itself represents what most people who end relationships go through, coping, heartbreak, and even denial in some cases. Phé has mastered the ability to compose songs that touch the soul and make you feel like you are in every situation she has sung about thus far.

I briefly got the chance to catch up with Phé right before the release of this song and talk to her about “Feel You”, what she’s been up to since our last interview, and much more.


Q: Before we dive straight into the music it’s only right to ask, how are you? You’ve been taking care of yourself?

A: I’ve been doing well! Just trying to stay healthy and grounded — sometimes easier said than done of course.




Q: What’s been going on since we last spoke? I know you did a little bit of touring, what was that experience like?

A: It’s been a busy couple months! I was on tour with Ella Vos for a little while, singing background vocals back in March, and then I got asked to come back on the road and open for 2 of her West Coast shows, which was really fun! That was actually my first time playing for an audience that was made of up all strangers, which was a super surreal experience. I’m trying to be patient, but honestly I’m just really excited to start touring and playing my music for people.

Besides that I’ve been doing a lot of writing with other artists and songwriters for a bunch of different projects, working on finishing up my EP, prepping for this release of “Feel You” (I can’t believe it’s finally out!), and have also been trying to spend more time writing for myself again.



Q: Now, “Feel You” – I gotta ask, is this something you’ve written out of a personal experience?  And for those who have yet to hear it, can you briefly explain what the song is about?

A: Feel You is based on true experience, and was actually a huge part of my healing process at the time. I wrote the first version of the song about 3 years ago, after going through a really hard break up, during a period where I really wanted to be able to heal and move on, but everything around me kept reminding me of this person and the relationship we had. I was really struggling to admit that I wasn’t doing well, because I wanted to believe that I was better off or that he didn’t have the power to hurt me, but by treating myself like that and judging how I was feeling, I only made things worse.

So the song talks about the process of accepting where I was emotionally, recognizing the spaces in my life where this person still seemed to exist, and then trying to disassociate or separate him from those spaces. Beyond that, the song is about just trying to understand the parts of me that wanted to be able to experience and feel that same kind of love again, while also fearing the possibility of allowing myself to get hurt all over by opening myself up.


Q: How long did it take you to create the song? When did you know that it was “finished”?

A: This song itself was super easy to write, because it was just how I was feeling at the time. But it took a long time till get to a place where the recording and production felt right. I think there will always be a part of me that wants to keep working on every song I write. And as I enter new phases in my life, my understanding of each song changes, and so with that I always want to bring in new elements or change things. But it gets to a point where you just can’t give anymore of yourself to a piece, and I think that’s when you need to let go and put it out into the Universe and let it be.


Q: It’s been about two full years since your first release, do you think you’ve evolved as an artist with each release?

A: I definitely think I’ve evolved as an artist since my first release two years ago. I was in a very different space back then, and so much has happened both in my personal life and my musical life since then that it would be impossible for me not to have evolved as an artist and as a person.

I think now I have a much stronger foundation and a deeper understanding of what I do and don’t want for myself, and what is important to me, which has really helped me to navigate my way and stay focused. But I know there is still so much growth and learning to do, and I can’t wait to see where I’ll be two years from now!


Q: I know you’re working on your debut project, is there a title for it yet? Are you looking at releasing it this year?

A: The title of my debut EP is CRISIS, which is also the title track on the project. This project has been with me for a really long time, and has kept going through changes, but it’s really close to being finished, and so the plan is to release it later this year. I’m really really excited to get this project out into the world!



Q: Will the singles you’ve previously released be featured on the project as well or are you starting from scratch? Also, should we expect any collaborations?

A: All the singles will be on the project — along with two more songs and a couple interludes. Unfortunately there aren’t any collaborations this time around, but I definitely want to explore that for the next project!



Q: Overall, how has your year been, is there anything you’re looking forward to throughout the year?

A: Overall this year has been pretty crazy honestly! I’ve gone through, and am still going through a lot of big transitions, so there hasn’t been a ton of stability. But I’m learning so much and know that it’s all a part of the process. I’m really just excited to finish off this project and to keep writing new music and pushing myself as an artist. I think this year is going to be a pivotal moment in my career, I’m not sure how exactly, but I feel like all of this shifting and transitioning is leading to something big, so I’m just trying to brace myself and keep working on my craft, so I’m ready when that moment does come.


Q: Before we end, would you like to say anything to your supporters?

A: THANK YOU! A million times thank you! While these songs may start out for me, they are also for all of you, and I’m so happy that there are people out there that are connecting with my music and finding solace within them. I’m blown away every day just by the kindness, love, and support I am receiving, and it means the absolute world to me. So thank you for coming on this journey with me, I love you all. Xo

Make sure to listen to “Feel You” on SoundCloud and/or Spotify.

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